Well had a couple of tough weeks. For all the good my GP Surgery has done for me i took the difficult step of sending a formal complaint in to them. Due to an error over prescriptions and the treatment i received. Cant say too much as investigation still on going. Good news though is … Continue reading
Flashback Re-emergence
After having my breakdown in 2013 I had loads of flashbacks due to PTSD. Almost all of them were me ‘flashing’ back to the Time that Greater Manchester Police were in the flat, The Hi-viz jackets they wore were so visible in the flashbacks. I had some Therapy in 2014 which used an NLP approach … Continue reading
No more fight left
I feel so guilty. Guilty that I cannot fight and beat this depression, anxiety and PTSD. Guilty of the effects it’s having not only on me but on friends and family. I feel guilty asking for help, others get along by themselves, so why can’t I bounce back. Why is life so difficult? I feel … Continue reading
Starting to move forward again
Well things are starting to move forward again, after grinding to a halt. I Have received my appointment for the Orthotics Department, Was referred to them back in January 2016 and was told of a 9-13 month waiting list, but its come through after 6 months months so hopefully will be able to help. Although … Continue reading
Asking for help
After speaking with family down in London, Went to GP and told her that I didn’t think CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) Was right for me at this time, I needed someone I could talk through my thoughts and feelings with. So I Have been referred to ‘Healthy Minds Bury’, so will see what comes of … Continue reading
Philosophical thought…
Just feel like i’m being Stepped on. Always believed in a higher power, Everything that happens to me i have always believed is for a reason. Either i was an extremely bad person in my last life. Or i’m being challenged to see how much i can take and handle. In order to get ready … Continue reading
Going round in circles….
Well haven’t done an update for a while. Mainly cause i’m stuck in loop and going round in circles. Feeling a little lost to be honest. I need help with my state of mind and mental health, however the mental health team cant help as I have physical issues with my knees. So was referred … Continue reading
Hearing aid update
Well I had a hearing aid fitted 3 days ago on my right ear, and wow i’ve noticed a huge difference already. I didn’t realise how bad my hearing was, hearing all sorts of different ‘new’ sounds. Still learning all the new wonderful sounds. Some sounds are already getting on my nerves.lol (The fridge motor being … Continue reading
Tinnitus & Hearing loss…
Well new year and new problems, although hopefully on track to get it eased. Been to see an ENT Specialist (Ear, nose and throat) Â at the Royal Bolton Hospital. As i’ve had ringing in my ears since i hit my head back in 2013. Didn’t go well. Having to have an MRI scan, as Doc … Continue reading
Health Update
Health Update: CBT: (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) Had my first (and last) session yesterday. They are unable to help at the moment due to physical issues and high pain levels. As part of the CBT process involves mobility and as I’m in pain it will apparently distract me. So have to get my knees sorted before … Continue reading
More Health issues to fight!
Been to the Musculoskeletal Clinic at the hospital. Feeling very sore after having my knee poked, prodded, pulled and stretched. My knee cap isn’t fitting in the groove of the knee joint. My Calfs muscles are not in control so are not puling the knee cap into place. I have flat feet and they twist … Continue reading
Physical Illness Vs Mental Illness
Mental Illness rules my life, whether i want it to or not. However I have been suffering alot of physical issues too. I never know it its part of my mental illness, or side effects of medication. Everytime i’ve gone to see the GP, my mental health has been my priority cause of the state … Continue reading
Advice, Assistance, Directions…
I don’t know what to do for the best… When i finished my last counselling session in 2014, i was starting to get back on track and finding my way again. The sessions helped with my PTSD. My flashbacks and nightmares were the biggest challenge at the time. Then in January 2015 i felt strong … Continue reading
NHS Failing Mental Health sufferers
I was referred for Cognitive behavioural Therapy back in January 2015, i’m still waiting been told it wont be until November or december till i’m seen. This means it will have 14 months since my last therapy and its just not helpful. The progress and steps forward i feel i made in 2014 has been … Continue reading
Unsettled nights….
Since my breakdown in 2013, I had huge sleeping issues. Loads of nightmares and Flashbacks (PTSD) and really wasnt sleeping. I went for counselling in 2014 and we used an NLP approach (Neuro-linguistic programming), to try and get rid/reduce the unsettled nights. It worked the nightmares and flashbacks have ‘stopped’ and i’m no longing waking … Continue reading
Lost
Been feeling very lost lately. Still having trouble planning for the future and my social anxiety seems to be getting worse. I don’t feel safe or comfortable going out the flat. Not sure where its come from. A Lot of it predictably is in my head, feel i’m being judged by everyone and i feel … Continue reading
Plodding Along….
Haven’t done an update in a while. Mainly because I’ve had nothing to report on. The benign paroxysmal positional vertigo (BPPV) (vertigo) has improved alot since the doctor did his tests and exams. Still feeling very low on energy though. but the dizziness has subsided thankfully. As for the Depression, Anxiety and PTSD, not much has … Continue reading
Another Medical Issue
Well the GP’s finally found out why i keep having dizzy spells and collapsing. I’m suffering from Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo (BPPV). Nothing to serious, just more annoyance. Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo
Anxiety attacks Vs Panic Attacks
For a long while its been to difficult for me to work out if i’m having an anxiety or a panic attack. Most people think they are the same and although they do seem it there is a huge difference. Which i’m now slowly starting to detect and then can take appropriate action, as the way … Continue reading