Just feel like i’m being Stepped on.
Always believed in a higher power, Everything that happens to me i have always believed is for a reason. Either i was an extremely bad person in my last life. Or i’m being challenged to see how much i can take and handle. In order to get ready for something in the future.
But sometimes I think enough is enough! Argh! I Keep plodding along, but guess it comes down to old age question of “What is the meaning of life?”
Well haven’t done an update for a while. Mainly cause i’m stuck in loop and going round in circles.
Feeling a little lost to be honest.
I need help with my state of mind and mental health, however the mental health team cant help as I have physical issues with my knees. So was referred to Physio and started going weekly to the Hospital. Until i had a major panic attack during a session. The physiotherapist doesn’t want to continue until my mental health is better, but the mental health team wont help until my physical issues are sorted. So catch 22! The GP is trying to intervene as she agrees that i shouldn’t be doing physiotherapy in the state i’m in. As the exercises get my heart beating fasting with starts panic attacks.
Have been trying to occupy myself and learn new skills. Been having fun Creating paper models over 140 made so far, running out of space.lol Â ( Photos: Ferris Wheel and Space Shuttle Models):
Have also invested in some loom bands and have been attempting these as well, managed to make a snake and a number of bracelets.