I cant seem to win or move forward with my recovery. People keep telling me that i’m doing well and they have seen improvements but whats happening in my head/mind doesn’t agree. I seem to have so many problems that its always playing catch up, sort one thing out and another rears its head. If … Continue reading
Manchester
This Is The Place A Poem by Tony Walsh Manchester! This is the place in the North West of England It’s ace, it’s the best and the songs that we sing From the stands, from our bands set the whole planet shaking Our inventions are legends! There’s nowt we can’t make and So we make … Continue reading
Running on Empty
Feeling both physically and mentally drained. Its been a while since my last post, but this past month has been exhausting. I feel I’m just going through the motions. I have completed my one on one counseling sessions with Bury Healthy Minds and am now on a waiting list for group anxiety therapy. Their will … Continue reading
Anxiety is Building Up
Anxiety is building up and can feel i’m struggling / fighting off a panic attack. I’ve had a lovely few days with my parents who came to visit and i’m quite proud of myself i pushed myself a lot and survived big crowds and lots of decision making. Even though it was family i am … Continue reading
Hearing Aids – Update
Had my audiology care transferred from Bolton Hospital to Bury Audiology. As this is a lot easier and closer for me to get to, making it quicker to get replacement batteries and to have the hearing aids re-tubed. Bury Audiology had to do another hearing test today, which confirmed the results that I had last … Continue reading
Trouble Communicating
I have trouble communicating. May sound very silly saying that while I’m writing a blog about my Road to Recovery. But communication isn’t just about talking. There’s hearing, talking, writing, feeling, expressing myself the list goes on, everyday we communicate with each other a vast number of ways and I have always struggled. Hearing: I … Continue reading
Invisible Disabilities
I suffer from a number of Invisible Disabilities including Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, being hard of hearing and having musculoskeletal disorders. On a good day people would never know, but there are times when some help is needed. I’m very conscious of my disabilities and don’t like to let it show it. Probably stems from the stigma … Continue reading
Domestic Abuse
Well this is going to be another very difficult post, so apologies for any rambling. I have chatted with numerous people about certain aspects of what happened, but i don’t think anyone knows the full in’s and out’s of the events. In 2004 I moved from London to Manchester with my Partner at the time … Continue reading
Time to Talk Day 2017
About Time to Talk Day  Conversations about mental health change lives. At the moment, too many people with mental health problems are made to feel isolated, ashamed and worthless by other people’s reactions.But talking about mental health doesn’t need to be difficult. It can be as simple as making time to have a cup of … Continue reading
It’s OK to be Me
Well I’ve had 2 sessions of counselling so far in my current round of treatment. A number of things have come up that i’m currently working through. I’ve got to encourage myself and teach myself “Its OK to be Me” I’m a very sensitive person and take almost everything to heart, during counselling we worked … Continue reading
Failing when doing things correctly…
I Seem to be cursed when I try do things the correct way it always seems to go wrong. I paid Bury Council to take Bulky Waste away and they have refused. I am classed as disabled and have tried to do everything correctly. I booked through the Bury council website on the 2nd January … Continue reading
A Positive Start to 2017
Had a difficult but good chat with my new counselor this morning during my telephone assessment. She really did listen and wasn’t just focused on the events of 2013 but my life as a whole. She agreed that I need to talk things through, rather than have CBT therapy to fix my symptoms, as CBT … Continue reading
Happy New Year 2017
I wish 2017 to have lesser disasters, less hate, less accidents and loads of love. Happy New Year Everyone!
Life has Stopped
3 Years ago my life came crashing down around me and hasn’t really moved on from there. Greater Manchester Police have ruined my life! I don’t blame the individual officers but the force as a whole. It could have and should have been dealt with differently. Maybe if it it had Greater Manchester Police wouldn’t … Continue reading
Therapy.. All Change
Well after another counselling session and explaining about my nightmares and being angry. The Counselor was very Good, listened, understand and made made changes. So Its all stop on therapy that I’ve been doing, Progressive Muscle Relaxation Therapy (PMRT). We have decided to stop this as its causing unwanted and unintentional side effects. We are … Continue reading
Angry
I’ve attempted to write this post multiple times and each time I’ve deleted for fear of being rejected, treated differently or being locked up. However, I need to get these feelings out. I tend to bottle feelings and my thoughts up. All that happens is it just eats myself up inside. I’ve been feeling very … Continue reading
World Mental Health Day
It’s World Mental Health Day today. Let’s remove the stigma for the 1in4 together. One in four of us will experience mental health issues at some point in our lives, and many of us will support the 1 in 4. We need a revolution in mental health services. If you need support, contact your local Mind or … Continue reading
Dyslexia Awareness Week
Its Dyslexia Awareness week! I’ve suffered from Dyslexia all my life, its not something that’ll go away or can be cured. Its something that i have to continue learning to cope with. It caused me huge issues in school and in my work life, but there has been alot of help and support out there … Continue reading
Stop the Stigma of Mental Illness..
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. We have all heard this expression as kids. While this may have seemed like a great tactic to use on the playground in self-defense, words actually CAN and DO hurt. And the pain caused from them often lingers long past the healing time … Continue reading
Starting Treatment
Well I’ve started having treatment through Healthy minds Bury. Only had one session so far. Since my Breakdown in 2013 I’ve been asking and asking my GP and any mental health workers I come into contact with. Asking and sometimes pleading to have someone to talk to, someone i can discuss what happened, what i … Continue reading