This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to write or admit to – I’m a domestic abuse survivor. I feel so ashamed and I’m full of guilt – because although at the time I didn’t realise what was happening due to the fear and the Coercive behaviour towards me – I did … Continue reading
Christmas 2020
HAPPY CHRISTMAS Well what a year 2020 has been, a Global pandemic which saw countries and people placed in Lock-down. I Haven’t been able to visit or see any of my family since January 2020 and would normally travel to spend Christmas with them. This year like many other people we have decided the risk … Continue reading
World Mental Health Day
Today is #WorldMentalHealthDay. Please spare a thought for those struggling with something not visible. The mind can be a scary place. Support one another, be conscious of how you treat others. You never know what that person is going through
Lockdown
Well 2 weeks before the UK went into lockdown I was at hospital having a camera inserted into my nose and had other tests. The diagnosis was Allergic Rhinitis, 2 months on I’m still waiting for test results to find out what it is I’m allergic too. However it could just be my fibromyalgia and … Continue reading
Accepting I’m different
Throughout my life, I’ve struggled to fit in. things people find easy, I dont and came up with numerous ways to fit it or ways to accomplish things. Despite this I’ve always been told I’m doing things wrong or someone would say “I wouldn’t have done it that way.” Nothing i have done has been … Continue reading
Hospital Disaster
Over the past couple of months i have been having numerous hospital appointments and then had an operation. It was to remove 4 teeth (3 wisdom teeth and one other tooth). It seemed to be one disaster after another. Although the operation was successful it was not without drama, trauma or stress. They really did … Continue reading
Routines
After getting my formal diagnosis of Autism in 2018 I was referred for ‘Life Coaching’ in order to help with my confidence and to be able to have more understanding on how i see the world and to try and make sense of how my view is different to other peoples and to gain more … Continue reading
No gain without pain
Been a long time since i did an update, mainly to be honest because I have been very overwhelmed. Have had appointments and hospital trips weekly. Fibromyalgia – Been going to Fairfield general Hospital to their physiotherapy department to take part in ‘Pain Management Sessions’ has left me extremely sore and in lots of pain … Continue reading
Understanding – At last
After years of complaining of pain and numerous trips to Hospital. I was referred to see the Rheumatology department at North Manchester Hospital. Saw a very nice Doctor who really did know what he was doing and asked alot of in depth questions. It was amazing for someone to actually understand what I had been living … Continue reading
Another Diagnosis – Fibromyalgia
Well as anyone who knows me, will know that i’m not very well. Doctors seem to agree as I’ve received another diagnosis of Fibromyalgia. The main symptoms of fibromyalgia are outlined below. Â Widespread pain If you have fibromyalgia, one of the main symptoms is likely to be widespread pain. This may be felt throughout your … Continue reading
Changes?….
I’m rediscovering the world and myself since my autism diagnosis. Learning a lot about Autism (still a lot to learn) and finding that lots of my little quirks are often ‘Symptoms’ of Autism. I think i made need to change the name of my blog, as its no longer a road to recovery. I had … Continue reading
Autism Spectrum Disorder
I haven’t posted in a while cause to be honest i’m scared, confused and very lost. I’m still coming to terms with being diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) and what it means and what effects it’ll have on my life. I’ve always felt that i’m a different and that something has been ‘wrong’ with … Continue reading
Autism Diagnosis
Since my nervous breakdown in 2013, I have been visiting the GP, going to counselling and even had a number of unexpected trips to Hospital. They seem to be finding more and more things wrong with me. First it was anxiety, depression and PTSD. Then they discovered I was partially deaf and classed as hard … Continue reading
Asperger’s Syndrome
During a counselling session last week the Counsellor has admitted that he is only able to help so far and has identified a number of things. We have been looking at things in depth and using mood diary’s to help. But a lot of the underlying issues we found are ingrained in my mind and … Continue reading
Conflicting Beliefs
I’ve been continuing with my counselling and its been going quite well and we have been zeroing in on certain ideals/beliefs that i have grown up with and has been quite surprising in some of the “answers.” I have always believed in the best of people, even if others have warned me about them or … Continue reading
On-wards and upwards
Taking a break works wonders. The start of September was particularly difficult, I was very depression and struggling with a number of things. I had also restarted counselling with Bury Healthy Minds. Took a weeks break and headed to London to visit family and this coincided with a number of Transport events and open days. … Continue reading
Losing grip on reality
I feel am losing my grip on reality. I just don’t seem to know what is real or what i have dreamed / made up / imagined. It’s a bizarre feeling. I seem to have lost the ability to put things in chronological order / timescale. Things that happened weeks ago seem like yesterday and … Continue reading
Where to start?
Argh! Don’t know where to start or what to do for the best. I have so many different issues both physically and mentally that need addressing. I have noticed however all these issues overlap and interact with one another. The way the mental health team and the GP work is to focus on one issue … Continue reading