Been quite quiet on here of late. Been going through a barrage of tests to find out why i keep collapsing and having dizzy spells. Thought it was my medication but after having them changed i’m still having issues. Had a number of blood test which shows elevated levels in my liver so had more … Continue reading
Struggling to be heard….
Its so difficult to be heard when and believed when you have mental health issues. Really is shocking and horrible the way people treat me. I always tell the truth and never been in trouble, yet as soon as people hear that you have Mental Health issues they write you off. They tell you ‘the … Continue reading
2015 A Different Year???
Well everyone keeps saying 2015 is gonna be different, bigger and better than 2014. I Must admit I did have my fingers and toes crossed wishing that can be true. However the reality of it isn’t that easy easy. I Know were only twelve days into the year, but getting a sense of ‘Same Sh*t, … Continue reading
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas to all my Readers 🙂
Almost Christmas…
Well Quite a week I had last week, Went to see the GP on Monday as had been feeling rather low, kept having dizzy spells and had a sore throat. Doctor increased my medication and gave me an oral solutions for my throat. Turns out i had been brining stomach acid up during my anxiety/burping … Continue reading
Feeling Overwhelmed..
Am Feeling so overwhelmed and don’t know what to do. Just feel like crying. I Haven’t slept properly in over a week, When i wake up i’m in a highly anxious state. So Much trapped wind as stomach wont settle. Causing me to have burping fits, this is bringing up stomach acid and giving me … Continue reading
Anxious
Well we’ve gotten through the week we were dreading, a year on after Greater Manchester Police decided to turn our flat and lives upside down. I’m Still a mess, So Anxious all the time. Loads of things coming up this month with the festive period think its getting to me. I so want to do … Continue reading
Guilt…
I feel so Guilty that i’ve had a breakdown and its affected my friends and family. In ways I couldn’t have foreseen or planned for. I know I shouldn’t. I know i’m unwell and will get better but it doesn’t stop the guilt. Friends and family have been brilliant and supportive, So huge thank you … Continue reading
Being Disabled….
I am classed as being disabled and I have found that its quite difficult to find out help and information. I have found some links which have proved to be very help to my and some of my friends who are disabled as well. Very useful and helpful for getting out and about and getting … Continue reading
Christmas is Coming!
Due to events and my Breakdown last November (2013), Christmas was a very muted event. Did not have the Christmas Spirit at all, and celebrations were very limited on my normal Christmas time festivities. Normally i’m counting down through out the year as Christmas is my favourite time of year, but this year I … Continue reading
Getting Help with Mental Health….or not…
It is scary, when you need help and there’s no-one there. There are charities and organizations out there: Anxiety UK Mind Charity Time to Change Unfortunately I have found that a lot of the help out there you have to go and find yourself. When your nervous of social situations and terrified of using … Continue reading
A Step forward….
WOW! What a week, I’ve had. Certainly impressed and proud of myself (something very unusual these days.) My Parents came up from London, to visit me and my boyfriend, to see how were are doing and to say hello. We had a fabulous time. We went out for meals and went and showed them parts … Continue reading
The Internet is a lifeline….
The Internet is a lifeline for people who suffer from Mental Health Issues. You can have loads of support from friends and family, but if you’re terrified of social situations it can be very difficult to meet for a coffee or even talk on the phone. People do take it for granted that its easy … Continue reading
PTSD – Flashbacks
Since my Counselling Started to help reduce my Nightmares and flashbacks from events that happened in Nov 2013. I have had a good couple of months without them, but had had the first one in ages the other night. Scared the crap out of my was screaming as i woke. But it didn’t disrupt my … Continue reading
Coming off the rails….
Sometimes coming off the rails in life can be a good thing. Although the majority of ramifications of having Mental Health issues is negative there are some good things to come out of having a breakdown. The main thing I’m realising is my out look on life and the world. I’ve come to realise that … Continue reading
Lord Sugar and the Twitter Incident
Well thought I’d write a post of my Twitter Incident I had, Just feel it necessary for me to explain my side. I had no intention of Upsetting or offending anyone, from the levels of abuse and choice words from other people on twitter it seems I have, So my apologises if I did. Just … Continue reading
Making Plans…
Making plans when your depressed and have anxiety issues isn’t easy. Its not easy for a number of different reasons. Firstly when I make i never know how my mood or how I’ll be feeling on the day. Normally when i make plans I’m feeling upbeat and confident, So might plan everything thing out only … Continue reading
Counseling Continues…
Since my breakdown have been struggling with a lot of things. I was referred to Counseling through my GP. I Had an assessment with the Mental Health team where i live and we agreed that the Sleeping issues and Flashbacks were the first priority. I wasn’t sleeping at all. And this mean me very tired, … Continue reading
Another trip to Hospital
Well everyone keeps telling me “I’m a disaster waiting for a place to happen.” I’ve gone and done it again. This time i’ve broken one of my toes (the toe next to my big toe on my right foot). On Wednesday night 27th August, I was getting something out of one of the top cupboards … Continue reading
Confidence V Risk Taking
Well Since my breakdown in November, I have started to realize that the world i create in my mind and the things i image happening are a lot more worse and scary then real life itself. I Have found myself wanting to do things that i would have before said was too dangerous or stupid … Continue reading