Been having a huge amount of Sleeping problems since the events in November 2013. I used to struggle to function if i didn’t get a good 7 or 8 hours of sleep a night, would wake up grumpy and tired if i didn’t. But for the past 10 Months I’d be lucky to get 6 … Continue reading
Bucket List is a go!
Well I’ve gone and done it.lol Started creating a Bucket list. Will add to it and update it as i go. My Bucket List [whohit]Bucket-List-is-a-go[/whohit]
Feeling Worthless or Guilty
I feel so guilty all the time. Feel guilty for having dark thoughts for not being full of joy and life. I know its part and parcel of Depression and PTSD. Its part of my illness but still hate it. Feeling guilty for needing someone to talk to or asking for help. Its my issue, … Continue reading
“You’re Free, Genie’
With the death of Robin Williams. Mental health, depression and suicide are in the headlines this week. Some good, some bad and some controversial. Independent: “You’re Free, Genie’ From BBC News: Benefit show Sky News: Sinead O’connor [whohit]Youre-free-genie[/whohit]
Bucket Lists?
Are bucket lists a good idea? I’ve been debating to make one or not. I haven’t been well for a while and during the darker times been suicidal. So is creating a bucket list a reason to live to accomplish the list or a morbid thought of death, and what then happens if i ever … Continue reading
Waking up with an Anxiety disorder
I wake up most morning normally with a jump/start and so the day beings. Every morning starts with physical symptoms, a racing heart and shakiness. The shakiness has calmed down a lot since November, but still affects my life in a massive way. The GP Has put me on Beta Blockers to slow my heart … Continue reading
Surgery Required?
I have had problems with my knees for years from a young age when i was diagnosed with Osgood Schlatters Disease. Since then my knees have gotten worse. Back in 2010 i had to have my left Knee reconstructed. This was due to me snapping all the ligaments in my knee and this let the … Continue reading
Panic Attacks
Panic Attacks are Horrible. [whohit]Panic-Attacks[/whohit]
What have you done today to make yourself feel Proud?
Well Have had a busy morning, busy for me anyway. I went out and went to the Local GMP Police Station. To get a second form for the Professional Police Standards Branch for me to sign. Huge accomplishment going to the police station. Had a massive panic once i had got home, but thankfully not … Continue reading
Terrified of the Police
Yep as Silly as it sounds I’m terrified of the police. Due to the events in November 2013 (see my previous blog). I’m scared of the police. I have lost all trust and faith in Greater Manchester Police and UK policing as a whole. I do have an anxiety disorder and do suffer from PTSD … Continue reading
My Nervous Breakdown
This is what has happened and why I’m now a nervous wreck. ****************************************************** I’ve been unwell for couple of months were I haven’t been eating alot and been having stomach problems. I then found a lump on my bottom so went to see GP. Was sent to Hospital as Doctor has concerns it might be … Continue reading